you arent the healthy
& the healthy is what i am needing
oh i know i cant take it away from you or any of them
i just want to sit beside someone who will hold my hand firmly enough until i start to thaw
& it melts in me & cascades through my veins
eskimos riding in kayaks
everyone knew the day was coming
or maybe no one thought it ever was
i cant tell whether i'm more doubt than hope
oh my clever love you havent done your sums
it's all in error
& i am walking to school with a bag on my shoulder
& i am passing birds & trees & apples
& it's like innocence again
tell me who you are in ten minutes & i'll decide if you're worth the time
i just want to remember things i have been forgetting on purpose
& forget things i have been remembering on accident
i am scribbling on paper & i'm learning to draw
& i'm waiting for them to lift my body & carry it to where there's health again
where there are eyes that work
& hands that will not cover them