"please," she said. "i want to make something beautiful for you."

take everything that i say as only a grain of sand
put it all together into an hourglass
to mark the passage of time.

there has never been a perfect farewell.

'the heart is more deceitful than all else and is desperately sick; who can understand it?'
-jeremiah 17.9

i'll admit it - ive taken it for granted. no one has walked all over me. no one has stood in my way so that i couldnt move or even breathe without fear. only misfortune of my own doing, or misfortune far out of the hands of mere man. never at the manipulation of someone else.

it's a new perspective, to see things take shape in other people's lives. near and distant. it makes me want to be quiet. i know i have a lot to learn.

the new winterwake song is glorious. i want to play it over and over again.

here are the letters strung together...

[so long i have been afraid]

will you take me to where the words run out?
i have kept them so long that i ache with doubt
there are stars in these silences
bleeding scars help us breathe again
i have held on to windows of stained glass
you have seen through me and you take me past
these pale sighs take a rhythm now
in their tries to align with you
let me stay
close enough
so our hearts will beat in rhythm
there is a kind of sound in my mind
breathing new life
the loveliest music of old grand pianos
[so our hearts will beat in rhythm...]

http://listen.to/winterwake

my
only
mistake is
i keep hoping
i keep hoping
i'm hoping
my only mistake is
i keep hoping